This week has been tough for a number of reasons.
And during these times I often find myself feeling like a hypocrite for not following all of the advice I share on my blog. I mean, should I even be writing this if I’m not able to find it in myself to follow my own words of wisdom?
Am I even qualified to do so?
I like to think that I mostly write as a reminder for myself first.
So that I can maybe come back to my work and understand that I’ve already got all of the answers. That we all already have the answers within us.
That we are all our own gurus.
But some days it’s just really difficult to keep a positive mind set.
Actually, I take that back.
Some days it’s nearly God damn impossible!
After all – life is made up of a series of ups and downs, of twists and twirls… a whole roller-coaster of emotions, of set backs, let downs, and disappointments.
Some days are good too.
They say that you need to experience the bad in order to appreciate the good.
I guess that’s true as well.
The other day a friend of mine invited me to one of his favourite spots in town. A roof-top cafe with a view of the entire city. We were on top of the world. Literally. And during that moment I felt like nothing could stop me.
I was on top of the world.
But today I’m feeling down down down.
I guess that it all comes down to perspective.
We are what we think, and if we are in control of what we choose to think about – then surely there is nothing stopping us from becoming anything we want to become, right?
Today I will try to be a little bit better.
I will choose to see my problems as gifts.
Each and every single one of them is a gift handed to me by God himself.
Things don’t seem as bad any more.
I am no longer on top of the world.
All I can see is what is in front of me.
Maybe I’ve got tunnel-vision.
But you and I are both in control of our lives.
We might not be able to control every aspect of it, but we sure as hell can control the choices we make. Here’s the secret. The only thing you can do is your best. That’s all you can do. But maybe I’m not doing my best?
Maybe I can do much better?
Am I aware of my full potential?
I will start by seeing my problems as gifts.
That is all I need to focus on today.
One step at a time soldier!
And maybe if I can think about it enough...
... I’ll be able to convince myself that it’s real.
That all of my problems really are gifts from God.
That’s a warm thought.
It’s making me feel better already.
I guess that this is why I enjoy writing. It allows me to clear my thoughts and understand a little more about my complicated self. I need to silence my ego.
Let me silence my ego with every word that I type.
The keyboard is my ammunition, and every stroke is a bullet aimed towards my own inner demons. I am too flawed, too reckless for my own good.
And you are too.
But that’s ok.
We are all human.
Silence the ego.
Just yesterday I was thinking of giving up my day dream.
Life got hard and I had forgotten that the world actually needs me.
The world needs you too!
But sometimes we forget that.
And the sad thing is that isn’t even the worst part.
The worst part is when life gets hard and you just don’t know what you want to do with your life any more. I guess THAT is the worst part.
And if you aren’t prepared by reminding yourself on a daily basis as to why you are here and what you are meant to be doing with your life – constantly and regularly… you’ll end up sinking deep into the depths of forever fearful.
But surely you will sink.
I like to think that my writing is my life boat.
I am forever grateful for my writing.
Let me share a sincere thought with you –
Two days ago I was going through my archives and found an article I wrote almost exactly two years ago. You can read it in the next couple of sentences – and once you do, you’ll understand why I am telling you this.
To be honest, I thought that I’d have it all figured out by now.
I know people who have changed their entire lives and fortune in a much shorter amount of time. But not me. And maybe not you. But that’s ok.
Today is just not our day.
There’s a time for everything, and perhaps, today is someone else’s time to shine. I wish I could be there to see you at your finest. Hold on to this moment.
As for the article – here you go.
I wrote it as a reminder for myself.
I hope that it will keep me going for the next two years.
You’ve just woken up and it’s a beautiful Sunday morning.
The sun is shining high and mighty whilst your favourite song, still playing from last night, gently makes its way to your ears.
Your vision clears as you feel the soft touch of your significant other.
You look at each other. You smile. And you kiss.
Last night was crazy. The good kind of crazy of course. It was the launch of your very first product, and to your surprise – it was a great success.
You look around the room and find it hard to believe. You’ve come a long way, and you know in your heart that all of this has happened because of you.
Friends talk to you with a new found respect, and even more important – your family couldn’t be more proud. You can finally afford the Mercedes Benz you’ve always wanted to buy your parents ever since you were a little kid.
And you can’t wait to see the look on their faces when you show them.
Needless to say, hundreds of people wait in line to thank you...
... for changing their lives.
Your product is just that good.
And all the investors that once laughed at you are dying to get in on your success. But you don’t really care about them, do you?
It’s not about money any more, you’ve made it. You don’t need their help.
It’s about changing lives.
Things were never this great of course. It’s been a long journey.
You’ve been rejected, called insane, often in doubt of your abilities, and worst of all – spent many a days crying yourself to sleep wondering if you’ve made a big big mistake. And on most days, you couldn’t help but feel like all the hard work will never pay off.
You made it.
And you wouldn’t trade any of it for the world. Because every single one of those hardships has made you a better person. A successful person.
But how did you make it this far?
Well, two years ago on this very day – you decided to make a change in your life. It wasn’t your parents decision, and it wasn’t your friends either.
It was all you.
Because you knew that you deserved better.
Because you believed in a better life that you can create for yourself.
Because you wanted to change lives.
Now things are great.
No, I take that back. Things are amazing.
You are making a great living on your own terms doing something you are passionate about. It gives you a greater purpose too.
And best of all, you feel like the entire world is yours for the taking.
Because now, it really is.
Aaaaaand that’s a wrap.
My mom once told me that the world isn’t ready for me yet.
That I am yet to be discovered.
That once they give me a chance – things will never be the same again.
Maybe she really meant it.
Or maybe she was just trying to make me feel better.
I don’t even know who ‘they’ are supposed to be.
And that is all that matters.
Thank you mom.
I love you.